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a pinata at the end of the party 2021-11-21 -- 9:30 p.m. I feel like the pinata at the end of the party. Empty, battered, my guts hanging out. This pandemic took everything I had left after fertility treatment, being pregnant with twins, and having twins. I am so depleted. I say it all the time, I'm so depleted. I need something to look forward to. On paper, I have everything I set out to have: a great husband, a nice house in Toronto, two cute kids. But fuck it's hard. I just want an escape hatch - currently it's a 4 bedroom house with a walk-in closet and a shower. I'm sure that wouldn't make things easier (it would make things harder, in reality, because then I'd have to pay for that, too). But just a bit of comfort, you know? Everything I want is just comfort: more sleep, more time alone, slippers, sweatpants, a nice clean house. Just anything comfortable. Everything is uncomfortable and hard.
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